my thoughts

my wonderful mother n law who has been very supportive of me and has really try ed to be understanding and loving the last almost 3yrs said that we must be having a magical Christmas this year and it got me thinking why this year its different i thought some of it is my kids are getting how special Christmas time is. AS i thought i thought more how really the last 2 years i have just been going Thur the motins of Christmas. losing my dad and my grandpa in with in 7 months of each other and my family here on earth change drastically very quickly it really Thur me for a loop and Christmas would remind me of how different and how much i missed them, but in the last few months i realized that my dad and grandpa may not be here on earth but they are not gone the lesson he taught me the tradition he gave me are still with me they did not leave when he died. Its now my job to do what ever i can to do what is right and teach my kids what is right so i can be with him heaven again. My parents made Christmas special no matter how much money we didn't have it was always magical and that my dad was just has big of a kids during Christmas as we were. so Ive decide that this year i will be a kid too and make it a magical Christmas with love and traditions that my parents gave me.