its been a long time!

So its been along time since i have been on my blog. i have had realy crazy month and half or so. my dad was killed in a car reck and it seams like life as i know it stop and it has taken me a while to get it back going again. it defentaly is not the same. im the kind of person who wants to do something or feel something and move on i dont like to stay in one place emotionally, which can be good and when i have trials i dont sit and feel sorry for myself i just do what i have to do to get through it. this time i think that i have pushed my feelings aside and not really felt them because i want to get through this or maybe its i dont want to accept that the realty is on the other side of the trial is that my dad still wont be here. i know that i will see him again i have all faith in that, but it still hurts and i know that in the big picture here on earth is such a short time and we will be together again. I know that with out any doubt that Hevenly father has a plan for us and sometimes it just sucks lol but if we are faithful and follow him he will be there to comfort us .